Monday, June 15, 2009
I haven't freaked out on this blog in a long time, although that used to be the theme of most of my entries.
I still panic from time to time about the writing and wanting to be good enough, but I stopped posting about it because I just got tired of repeating myself. Plus I don't fall into writing-related shame-spirals quite as frequently as I did in the past.
But lately I've been bogged down by all of the decisions that need to be made throughout the process of getting Dreaming of Deliverance produced as a podcast novel and as a printed book. There are SO many things to think about. And I'm kind of a perfectionist, so I want to make the right decision and spend more time than I should analyzing all of the options related to each decision.
For the print version there's the cover, the interior design, the author photo, the acknowledgements. For the podcasted version there's bumper music, audio software, microphones, storage space. But what has me bogged down at the moment is marketing. How to get the word out about the book. There are lots of creative ways to go about it and I have some ideas for what to do, but ick. I don't like thinking that way. When I'm in a low-confidence phase I think why would anyone be interested? There are so many books out there. So many forms of entertainment.
But as I've said before, what's the most important for me, what got me started writing fiction in the first place, is story. Story trumps everything else. I adore burying myself in a good story. I adore burying myself in my story. So that's what I'm trying to focus on. The story. It will appeal to others. I get to share it soon, and that's really cool.
Next week I'll receive my digital proof of the print version, and with luck, will carve out some recording time. I'm also thinking about doing another Unpublishednotdead podcast.
I can't let myself forget about the story, though. In the end, the story is the reason for all of this.